It is a very boring night, after a few days of busy coming and going and eating, things have begun to slow down.  So slow that Suki and Peter, couples, both feel bored.  Suki and Peter lives far enough apart that it can be called a hassle to pick up, drop off each other.  So, Suki leaves Peter to his own business the whole afternoon believing he has something important to do, but has forgotten to tell Suki.  After finding out that he had to do some errands, Peter decides he has to take a nap at 7pm.  It has been a long day and Suki thinks that Peter deserved to have a nap, but around 10pm, she thinks to herself that she should at least wake Peter up because if she didn't Peter would have trouble sleeping tonight even though it's a Saturday night.  Little did she know taht Peter was already up and is ready to go out with his friends for a game of pool.  Suki thinks to herself that even though she is bored, Peter can still have some fun with his friends.  However, once Peter left, Suki was left all alone without a phone call.  She knows full well that after pool, it was probably some more gaming action at Peter's friend's house.  She also knows full well that Peter will not be going home anytime soon because she has been there and experienced how long they can stay in his friend's house for. 

Peter has taught Suki a lot of things, he has taught her what it feels like to be loved, to love someone, but also the feeling of loneiness and the feeling of being abandoned.  She thinks to herself frequently what Peter would feel if she went out with her friends at 10pm and don't come home till 3am without a phone call fully aware that Peter was bored at home.  Suki would probably never do that.  She would rather be at home on MSN with Peter than go out and have fun till 3am while Peter is bored at home. 

Maybe it is because Suki was never taught how to express her feelings.  All she knows how to do is cry to let the feeling go away.  Tonight, she has tried to punch her pillow until she is tired, play her playstation 1 for some entertainment, even re watching some of her dramas.  Everything seems to remind her how SAD she is, how pathetic she is, how utterly a loner she is.  So what does she do, the only thing she knows how to do at night when nobody is with her.  cry.  It's not the best thing to do in the world, but it will have to do.  Writing it down on a piece of paper about her feelings won't do because her tears would water the paper and the letters would get smudged. 

Then she thinks to herself, why is she crying? Is it because i'm mad? sad? lonely? She knows full well she should be fine with this and just sleep and wake up, and it's another day.  It's because Peter knew full well Suki was bored. That is right, b-o-r-e-d, bored, and Peter still left her for the night.  Suki would have been fine if she was entertained for the night, but she wasn't.  All she can do now, is type up this blog and blow her nose, and wipe her tears so she can sleep.

One more thing, Suki has another name, Asile. She will now sleep.. f-o-r-e-v-e-r, goodnight people.